*Yawns~~* Ouh! Ok i'm back on DA Journal *cheers and applause* Hahaha ok sick. Hmmm i'm feeling tired, kinda stressed, lost and blind perhaps.

Well there's lots of stuff going in school. I tat's the main reason why i have been quite busy and crazy and looney yeah? Ok cool mid semester tests are over, but nonetheless assignments still live on! Let's have a list of asignments to look at:

- Group projects
> MMPJ
> VIDP
> TBCM

- Individual projects
> MMMI
> MMAD

I think tat's about it. Kinda blank wen i tried to remember what i had to do during this one week term break. I got to touch on my MMMI (music something2) and still have two practicals to go. Hope i get to get it all done by tmr. I feel like there's nothing much to talk about when it comes to school. Why? *shrugs*

Ouh! Had my class gathering/barbeque at east coast park yesterday. It was great despite the unnormal weather. Hehehehe cool! And handed Aisyah her cap. Hope she likes it. Hahaha and HER change, i dunnoe whther if it's with her *thinks* Nvm..hehehehe! Uhm i shall not go into great detail about the barbeque, cuz it will go all the way and i will never finish. so yah....basically it was F-A-N-T-A-S-T-I-C!

Feelings, feelings, feelings. Sometimes i feel 'deprived' now at i dun have a girlfriend. Maybe i'm not used to the situation yet. Actually i feel i have, but sometimes, some things juz make me feel so last 'summer'. Today, i got to know my recent ex has a new bf. Yeah so what right? "So what, so what, so what?" (Heheheheh a song by NOFX).

"I don't have time for myself, i need time...blah3" So much for that huh? Now she's attached. Well shit happens. It's ok.

*TOPIC DROPPED*

Hehehehehe gosh. Ok let's see what's my 'currents' for now:

Current MSN nick:
[."make me worthy"][.PERFECTION THROUGH SILENCE][.the PiNK inflammation][.Kae-Ko!!]

Current song on player: Linoleum - NOFX

Current mood: Lost

Haiz.
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Outz for now.

Good morning! Yeah up early today. Firstly, feeling apologetic to Sophie from Guernsey. If you waited for me all night for me to come online that is. I was supposed to come back online. But somehow i fell asleep and woke up later in the morning. Yah sorry k..

Wow i think i have to do loads of catching up before the tests start flooding in. Lemme just list down the subjects i need to catch up with, soon!:

- MMPJ Practicals
- MMMI Practicals
- MMAD Task2/3 by next week

Well it may jus seem like its onli 3. But i can assure you tat the practicals are quite uneasy to handle. So....yah..it takes some time, which i dunnoe wen i will be able to access them.

Currently am working on my MMAD tasks dued next week. Thing i may have a hard time trying to have a written treatment of like 1000 - 1200 words. I mean its a normal kinda thing for me to write long long stuff. I'll juz try. "You can do i t Kae!"

Today i'll have to be in school by 1100hrs, to discuss the VIDP Assignment which will take place this coming Saturday. So need to plan out the script and all, the sequence. School ends at 1300hrs today. If not for the group discussion, i'll be in school for only an hour. I find it like pointless to come all the way to school. And only be there for an hour. Hahahaha! But i get to see my friends, so i think tat makes a difference *winks*.

I wanna go somewhere after school!! If no it would be so damn bored to go home straight after school. Hahaha but i have my tasks to do... Well i'll see how..

Ok..outs for now

Woah k. I have not been submitting journal entries here. But i actually have some entries done at my myspace account [link] Well I have been really wanting to write some of my feelings out on the blog. But somehow i got drifted away and i didn't do so. Write about how school really sucked and write about the girl whom i really like. *smiles for the girl*

Well my case about me being the suspect of 'theft' become more severe. I don't know what to say to these lecturers. They don't believe my motives and intentions. And the way they talk to me make it seem like they want me to admit i stole it. Well obviously who wants to admit for something that they did not commit; for my case, not stealing the handphone. Ok so i did not take the handphone. They want the truth, and tat's the truth. They don't believe it. What do they want more? Should i juz admit for the sake of admitting and let this case rest? In other words, i would unsincerely and untruthfully admit i stole the phone. This case is ridiculous. Even my friends and family finds it ridiculous. So the next step is to meet the main school disciplinary board. DUMBNESS! Apart from friends i think school generally SUCKS like F***!

This case has really put me off studying. Sometimes i think if it's worth the effort now im putting in. I mean what if i get expelled if the stupid school doesn't approve of my explanation and all. Then the case would be referred to the police. And high chances i'd get expelled. What the hell. One day i was thinking of getting my ass off this Singapore Polytechnic and going to another polytechnic. But i'm thinking about ym dad too. he has forked out some cash for the fees. And to waste the first year like tat, i think it's not worth it. So *shrugs* I don't know where this M.F**KING case would lead me too.

So what am i suppsed to do when i get expelled. Goodbye to seeing my friends on weekdays. And uhm yah i'll be so unprepared. I'm gonna think about it soon. Not that i'm being pessimistic about this matter. But i juz want to come prepared. If possible, continue my tertiary education as for normal, if my dad can still afford. Worse come to worse I think should spend my next few remaining years of school working until i am called up for National Service (NS). So many things going on in my head manz....

Yesterday was fuuny. I was watching this Malay show on the Suria channel. It was about some teenagers in campus life, love and all. And the actress, Jeslina Hashim was so drop dead pretty! She has some traits of Thai, China, dan Irish. i got this webby you guys might want to check her out [link] Ouh and while watching that show, I was thinking, maybe i could go to Malaysia and study there. Come to think about it now, I'm like...Gawd~ I thought of that? Hahahahha! I have nothing against Malaysia but i can't bear the thought of having to adapt to new environment, making new friends. What about my life here in Singapore?

Ah~ Let's move to a more worth thinking about topic. About someone i admire. I knew her through this online friend portal thingy (is that it?) @ AnakMelayu.com [link] Well it has been a habit for me to communicate and make relations with them. Relations as in friendships basically. yah but somehow i began to like this girl whom i am currently dating. She well knows that. I was glad now. Cuz before this liek a week back, i wasnt really sure where i stand after i told her something bout me. Whether she sees me as the same person, or trying to avoid *shrugs*. But now's that is clarifed and i am juz so glad. No plans on how our friendship will go on but the way things are now, i'm ok and happy with it *smiles* So what if more? Hehehehe!

Alright now, i think that's all for tonite!
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WooWee! Hmmm i'm back to the journal. Hmmm well for a start lemme tell u all who are gonna read this how i am kinda feeling: Uhm physically im ok juz enduring these tired eyes. Mentally i am ok i think. But emotionally i am kinda pissed off. You'll know why later on.

Hmmm i can't really remember when but i had a chat with my friend Fyerool [link] I and him we have a BIG common dream. Hehehe and yeah we've got that common interest also, the urban propaganda thingy (stickers, graffiti, posters, etc). So basically we had a chat about how far we would like to get with this interest of ours. And it turns out tat is kinda far! I so love Wooster Collective [link] Hehehehe... ok let's share my dream ok!

Well yeah i really wanna go as far as i can with this interest of mine, besides the serious courier thingy which i do not know wat i cuold be. I mean this interest is like my side-line thingy; for recreation purposes i can say. I think some of my classmates might know this dream of mine. That i wanna at least make it to New York City (ouh~~~) and maybe have collaborations and work with artists around there. I could juz imagine. In the first place, this thing i'm dreaming of, should happen sometime after years of work so yah...hehehehe. I dunnoe if this is possible, but i think it'll be so damn great if i could get an apartment there and make it into a studio. Then it would be so NEW YORK! Hehehe yeah i have so much love for New York. Love that city! However i don't think i can stay there for long cuz of immigration reasons, and besides that i may have resposibilities here in Singapore.

Heheheh ouh and i asked my mom this question: "What do u think is the oldest age that i shuold get married?" Well i was rather concerned too u noe bout my family. Cuz i wanna do wat i wanna do wen i can ferst before settling down for a family. Then at least i should be happier with the experience i wanted, got my wife, got my kids... Hehehe WOW! Ok let's not drift too far yeah? I will promise to post more aabout my dream or anything relevant to it here next time aite.

For now we shall move to why i am kinda pissed todae. Well i don't really want to make a big story bout it and i don't plan to say it fully. Well it was about wat happenedin school todae. I was actually accused of a mobile phone theft! Can you believe it?! Well yeah it seemed like i stole the handphone but actually i didn't steal it cuz in the first place i did not have any intentions of stealing it! I know how it fels for someone to lose a mobile phone. It is something essential in our daily lives, may contain some valuable stuff like pictures or messages, and value especially when it is a Samsung E700A. So yah i don't wanna go through wat happened and all. Well the owner got the phone back. And... OUH!!! I juz dun wanna talk about it actually. Hehehehe sorry bout tat.

So off i go~~!!
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Wow "18th May 2004". That was the latest journal entry before this. hahahaha tat's quite long yeah more than a month! I have my reasons. Hmmm more like excuses. Hehehehe. Well uhm firstly i had some creative juice shortage flowing to my brain. So like yah, i wasnt really having my creative .orgasms to make me work on my pieces. Perhaps somethings were bothering me or wat.

Anyway yah maybe im juz too bored you know. And i can't wait for the new semester to re-open on 5th of July. Well i tot of having a new image wen school re-opens, but i dun think i can. Cuz i din have the cash as i was not able to get a job for myself. More like i was lazy to find a job. Actually i did but after a couple of attempts i juz can't be bothered. So yah school maties! I'll be the same old Khairi Kae wen school starts! Hehehehe!

Hahahah man! I was reading my previous journal entries and uhm about my girfriend and stuff. Guess wat? She broke up with me. How sad right? Yeah sad for like the few 2 weeks or so after the break up. "But now i'm stronger than yesterdae..." Hahaha thanx Britney. I've gotten totally over her. Well if you wanna noe the reasons she gave me, I'll juz briefly tell u guys aite. Let's just share. Ouh btw we were pathetically together for onli 1yr 1mth.

And it goes like this: She SMSed me and said tat she had something to tell me..but soon she gave me a phone call. I kinda knew this was coming anyway. From the way she was treating me kinda coldly, like as if she can't be bothered with me tat kinda thing. And finally she like said it out. I do understand her responsibilities as a junior college student, to study hard and get that "A" Level Cert. Besides that earn 'co-curricular activities'(CCA) points, so tat it could give them a push into the University. OK2...back to track. Uhm yah so she said tat she has no time for herself, has so much things to do, juz wants to be single, and doesn't think that that time was appropriate for her to be in a relationship. Firstly, i was thinking, was i really demanding that much of her time. Come to think abt it, NO. In fact i gave lotsa breathing space wen she said tat she was going to be busy. And secondly, time not appropriate to be in a relationship? Why do you accept my 'proposal' in the first place. In the end i juz think that she is giving me excuses for wat reasons, "i don't wanna know.." Thanx Mario. Hahahaha!

Hahahaha yeah so tat's the story. It was kinda sad for me during the first 2 weeks of the break up. I actually cried while listening and (trying to) sing to Yellowcard's "Only One". It's a very meaningful song to me. But anyways, like i said in the past paragraphs, I AM OVER IT! Hehehehe juz living my life like i should!

Ouh uhm i'd like to introduce you to 'fyerool' @ [link] . Well he is my graff crew member in
EW!(e!thiq wrytas) and TSR(Tandoori Soopa Rockers) I find him real dope! Heheheh he has yet to have a DA account. Well he's doing his "O" levels this year. Check his blg out and he's got some pic and links in there. I and him are really nito this sticker propaganda thingy. Where u juz paste stickers around town. Salutes to The Killer Gerbil [link] , 3MenCollective [link] , and deadstock [link] . Hahaha i wanna be juz like you guys. Hehehehehe.